I’m sorry,

And I don’t want you all to worry,

But i know that’s not possible as I keep hiding away 

keep running away 

keep going missing everyday…

But I hate being in this body every day 

That’s slumped over in bed like a corps everyday 

I just don’t feel like it today…

Just like I didn’t yesterday and probably won’t feel like it any other day 

But how do I explain that that’s just be dealing with my worthless and meaningless existence my way? 

Please I saw your call and I saw your text but my one word replies will only got you wondering why

And if I ever picked up the call and you heard my cries 

It will only have you asking if I’m alright and im not..

 

It’s tough 

It’s tough it’s to talk about 

But if I don’t then how will others feel comfterble to reach out 

And realise that this isn’t something you have to be in doubt

As I've been in abit of a predicament.

I keep asking myself Am I worth this life I have?

Thats a consistent  battle with my mind I have 

And trust me those one or two days that I have 

Are the peace and quiet that give me the ability

return back to reality 

And communicate with society 

From this liability 

As my mind keeps fighting me aggressively 

So I hide  under my covers and in my room intentionally 

Yes because my heart is hurt fatally

Because it take one trip to my kitchen to become a casualty

I’m sorry… 

Walking  with a lot of scars And Wounds

That burden me. 

As my fears drown me in my tears 

it took god six days to create the world I stand on but after 21 years I still can’t seem to even stand tall and thrive 

I mean shi i can barely survive 

But  im alive… 

Im greatful god showed me the ropes before i hung from a rope.

I'm greatful he gave me hope before i lost all hope 

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What about the ones that aren’t ? 

The men that are still fighting with their thoughts 

And their minds to the point of extinction 

A simulation of a world war many have to face 

And others can’t imagine…

Year after year the numbers only increase 

But 1 thing I learned is you don’t have to be descend to feel like you’ve released...

one...

two...

three...

RIP

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five...

six...

RiP

seven...

eight...

nine...

r...

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Let that sink in,

Because no this isn't some fosset you can’t just turn this on and off cause it continues to go on and on 

And every second min hour of the day we keep loosing more and more 

To the point it overflows.​

Men your words are as valuable as Gold

so please if no ones told you this today I will - 

you are cared for.

you are loved.

and most importantly you are enough. 

so please reach out and realise that THIS should never be something you should EVER be in Doubt