I still remember the day you evicted me from your heart and left me homeless 

With all the times I reached out and you act like I never existed has left me hopeless 

(Pause)

See when you’re replaced, you’re designed to never return to where you once were. 

You truly gave a new meaning to the word erased  

And To know that I was inadequate to satisfy you as the princess that you were only leaves me with such void…

(Pause)

Do you remember the day I opened the arteries to my heart for you to flow through? 

I guess Pain isn’t pain untill you witness first hand a piece of you which you gave someone being given to someone else. 

not by your choice

not with your permission

So that breaks the question -

How much of you do you have control of when someone leaves with a part of you? 

How many of my secretes are truly my secretes when you ran off with the ability to spread them like a Chinese whisper.

Making all purity to myself disappear.

​

I guess it’s easy to let water pass under a bridge when it isn’t your tears that flow under it  in dispear. 

I was told holding on was more harmful then letting go but when your the one that cut the tie it left me falling back off a cliff where I had to deal with the fall alone. 

Has resukted in me breaking every bone

Every day I fell in my dreams and woke up plummeting the floor.

Every day I hit a rock, broke a bone, went through this torture.

As watch me from above and say Bom voyage… 

​

We disconnected like we had no signal.

Miss communicated like we spoke different languages 

Went our separate ways like we weren’t heading the same direction.

You made us both looking cross eyed how we couldn’t connect our visions 

What on earth happened to our commitment? 

i called you my misses 

You called me your hubby 

Promise rings were meant to turn into wedding rings 

Now you press the red ring when I try to call you 

Drew a diagonal line across our circle and blocked me 

even after 21 questions you still won’t give me 50 percent of your attention.

So you become the beginning of my self  distruction . 

They say what doesn’t kill you makes you makes you stronger, but you gave me life so if you aren’t around does that mean that you’ve killed me…

 

Because there’s no greater loss of worth then knowing you weren’t enough for someone’s satisfaction,

Not enough for someone’s elevation,

Not enough to be the father of someone’s  next generation,

Continuously not enough,

From someone that was enough and more 

From someone that told me one day we’ll live under the same roof and more.

From someone who I’ve had to accept won’t be in my life no more… 

Accepting you leaving is one thing.

But accepting the fact my heart will sink every time I think of you,

That my stomach will turn into a tsunami every time I see you that will cause pain to every organ of mine and drown it in its sorrow 

That your actions have caused me to cry so much I was the reason for why atlantas is underwater.

Caused me to weap so much that my head my face my throat my chest my core in agony 

So again I say… accepting you leaving is one thing. 

but I can never  accept the unacceptable consequences that followed you leaving…